“Of course, it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college but it was very very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something, your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well worn path, and that will make all the difference”. Steve Jobs
“Staying positive” sounds really cliché but it is totally different when you’re not even trying to do so, it just flows, and it’s deep. In 2016 and 2017 a lot of the spiritual truths I’ve been taught since I was little were incarnated in me. Understanding them is one thing, for I think I did understand them when learning about them, but LIVING them in all of their fullness is another.
Just a few days ago, a friend of mine said… “you’re genuinely happy in spite of everything you’ve been through” and it made my heart explode in gratefulness. How couldn’t I? Staying strong, having peace in your heart and waking up with a smile on your face every morning are not things I strive, they’re just a part of me… the state of bliss I experienced in the most difficult moments of my life… isn’t it the greatest blessing I could have in this world?
Thanks for the new places I’ve seen, the new friends I made and the wonderful life I’m living by realizing that the same force that is giving life to this universe is inside of me and I’m a part of it. And, as this is my first post of 2018, I would like to write the words of my beloved master Yogananda… “With the opening of the New Year all the closed portals of limitations will be thrown open and I shall move through them to vaster fields, where my worthwile dreams of life will be fulfilled”. I hope I can spread all the love that’s in my heart to the whole world, give a lot of hugs and board a lot of more planes.
I am currently facing, again, one of the most challenging moments of my life.
After my mother left this world I got closer to dad, and he passed away a month ago. Strong figures, all of them, left so soon, and so fast… My story with dad is long and very personal, I might share it one day. But it’s been definitely tough. The most difficult part is not his physical absence, but the physical absence of all the strong figures in my life. That makes me depend entirely on my inner strength, and I’ve always been somehow emotionally and spiritually independent but this time it’s gotten tougher. What made it harder is the unnecessary… let’s put it this way… ‘add-ons’ from people with selfish interests who have totally nothing to do with my life trying to steal my peace… situations that are completely new and unpleasant to me. Fighting new battles in completely new battlefields is scary, I must say, and that’s normal but I am somehow… very tired. Emptiness and longing are not new to me at this stage, but I’m glad I don’t feel as awful as I got to feel some time ago. I experienced the most wonderful love, synchronicity, wisdom and connection with the Divine like never before which I am also writing a book about, I don’t even know if I will ever publish it but it keeps me going. I hold tight to that, and I’m grateful for it.
Solo puede ser medido por el grado en que tu paz interior y tu control mental te capacitan para ser feliz en todas las circunstancias… La sencillez en el vivir y la nobleza en el pensar, es en verdad, lo que aporta el contentamiento. – Man’s Eternal Quest. Yogananda.
Three decades in this world this year… I take a look back in time and it seems very surreal… I remember as growing up I imagined it was all a dream, that I was laying in bed next to my mother while she was caressing my head and I fell asleep into a very long dream… years go by and then I wake up, all of a sudden… just to see I’m still next to her, and I’m still about 5 years old.
There are objects that come to my mind… a recorder she bought and I used to make audios with playing I had my own radio show, also singing. The Whitney Houston’s bodyguard album I used to play in heavy rotation… when I pronounced my first words in english and she knew I liked to sing and also speaking different languages, which she totally supported… feels like I got off a plane and I started the engine of a huge motorcycle, riding across life, encountering many characters and places, it never ceases to surprise me.
Seeing this life as a movie makes me have a lot of fun. Even under not so pleasant circumstances… what’s a movie without dramatic and thrilling moments? In the end, everything is transient and brief. I don’t take it seriously at all. I embrace it all as it is, I have many hopes and dreams, but love is my main goal, the one thing that’s real… for everything else is mere illusion.
I was feeling fine… I was turning keys, I was setting people free
I was doing all right…
Ok, that’s a cool song by the Doors 🙂 but what I wanted to share is this:
5 years ago I discovered a meditation by Kelly Howell based on a book by US Andersen (Three Magic Words) called the Universal Mind meditation. I spent a long time listening to it back then… years later today I listened to it again, it is so great I wanted to share with you on here. Hope you enjoy it.
Let me share the book by US Andersen too in pdf… here it goes Three-Magic-Words-US-Andersen